Welp,
I'm back! My temp position at Rackham school of Graduate studies at the University of Michigan working with incoming transcripts in the mail room is officially over. I didn't like hanging on the edge there for the past few days. Now it's over, and besides how good it may or may not feel, I'm back on my feet as an aspiring auto-didact.
The question now is, what's first? Where do I begin? Where did I leave off? More importantly, what am I going to dedicate myself to? What will I work hard at? What will compel me to do such a thing? It's not natural for me, I've never committed myself to anything in my life. I'm sure there's some things, but there's nothing that laziness doesn't stand in the way of.
Baby steps, baby steps count to.
Here are some inspiring quotes I heard on the news today:
"Life isn't supposed to be easy, I'm not giving up, this is just another curve in the road," - Rahm Emanuel
"Always keep a healthy disregard for the impossible," - Larry Paige
Well, here are my immediate goals:
- DJ on wcbn
-knit a scarf or headband asap
-thread crochet (grandma just sent me a pattern book, and I am so excited to try it, I also have to buy the right size thread and hooks)
-_R_E_A_D!!
-big brother big sister program? I'm just afraid I can't commit myself for long enough, but I think I am going to try.
-fitness (bellydance wed. nights, strength training tues.)
-cooking
-sewing class
-computers class in the spring
More importantly, what will I do every day? I need a schedule, I want to be productive, but when you don't have something that you HAVE to do, it's so easy to just let yourself be comfy! This is the biggest problem that I have, aka laziness.
So my idea in fighting this is to get up at 6 or so and head into town by 8. Now, the biggest dilemma in this plan is eating. I do not want to eat out during my day meals, but it's so easy (not to mention tasty!). There is so much tasty and accessible food around. So I'm going to have to buy a nice lunch box (maybe I'll do that tonight) so I can bring snacks and lunch, and I'm going to have to get better at planning lunch ahead of time.
Further, once in town, where I cannot be a total bum (hopefully you won't see me pan-handling on the side walk; kick me if you do), what will I do? I think I will read for the most part, and write and explore. What I need is a studio where I can create. I guess I will also go to Dad's to sew, but I want to do the crocheting as I said before, and I want to practice accordion. I was doing really well at that for a while, but since I started my job i have hardly played at all. This is mostly because when I get home, well I'm tired, and mom wants to watch tv, and I don't want to annoy the neighbors.
So, lunchbox, recipes and ingredients, read, knit, exercise, explore. TV shouldn't have much of a place in the auto-didactism, but unfortunately, I'm about to settle myself down in front of it. I did work-out for an hour after work though, so I'm not being totally lazy!
